Focal Point -Focus Like A Laser Beam!

“Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time.”

–Paulo Coelho The Alchemist


Practice does not make perfect, perfect practice makes perfect. However I like to focus on progress and not perfection. How do we make progress in the art of concentration and learn to focus like a laser beam. I’ve been fortunate enough to learn from many masters the different techniques to bring the monkey mind under control. What is the monkey mind? The monkey mind is what most of us deal with on a daily basis. We find thoughts arising that have no beneficial outcome and in many cases are detrimental. Any person that is honest with themselves in taking a look at the thoughts arising will agree that many are not going to bring about enlightening creations into the world. With this in mind what are some techniques one might practice


Breathing. Now most if not all have encountered a guru instructing the student to come into the now or the Yoga instructor directing the viewer to breathe. The reason this is cliché is because it is one of the most effective methods for learning to focus like a laser beam. A common method is to count to 5 while breathing in through the nose. Hold the breath for a count of 5 and then breath out for the same count. The beneficial results of learning how to do this are so numerous I don’t know where to begin – so I won’t – give it a try or not. I believe with practice you will enjoy some great benefits.

Tis better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles on the field. No one can take it from you, not angels nor demons, not heaven or hell.     -Da Buddha


If you happen to give this a try, notice how the mind wanders. I need to do the laundry. I think I have to pee. I have to remember to put the garbage out. I cannot believe that car alarm is still going off. I wonder if I left the dog in the dryer. You will see how difficult it is to direct your mind only to breathing.  We need to think about what we are thinking about, and if it’s not beneficial than we should learn how to redirect our mind. Existential detectives and redirectors. If we are not in control of our thoughts then this is a serious problem. Stress, envy, jealousy, health problems and depression stem from the inability to focus on what brings peace, love and joy. Thought alone is the source of all sadness, depression and also happiness and peace. This is heaven or hell- you get to decide. The world is completly neutral.


The quality of your life is truly derived from the thoughts you think, change your thoughts, change your life. And so changing your thoughts- just like rebooting a computer is a concious decison that requires one to focus like a laser beam. Who is the instrument, the music and whom is playing it?  

To reiterate, consider taking 15 minutes first thing in the morning and the last thing at night to focus on your breathing. This helps train the mind. A undisciplined mind can accomplish nothing. A disciplined mind can accomplish anything.

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A Painting I just finished on wood panel. Lets call it “Pain in the neck”


jellystone Rational


These two images are equal, nuteral and the same.

What is the only possible factor that could make them different?

Therefore: Seek not to change your world but to change your mind about it and the world changes with it.

When out on the trails, observance of “signs” becomes part of the walk. By the droppings or scat that falls out of the entrails of animals or different paw prints and scrapings/rubbings one can, allow an area to inform him. I walk a lot of trails. At times there are fellow travelers including parents and offspring. Among the chatter I hear frequently from both partiesthings like; where are we going next or what are we going to do when…..and we should have done that yesterday, the adults then attempt to answer in various ways. Indeed I have been involved in such retorts myself over the years. 

We all want to know what’s next, how does the story end. As I was growing up and watching or reading all of the tales, frequently the ending was ” and they lived happily ever after. Immediately I would ask, what happened next, what does that mean -happily……I wanted to know what was next then as well as today. I listen closely in the cities as well, I hear a rapid fire of opinions. A constant bombardment of thoughts, always in association with that individual consciousness. It’s always an opinion about a person, place or thing and often negative. Again it’s what’s next or shoulda-woulda- coulda.Even when completely out of breath on the trail, this in no way curtails him from launching hand grenades of opinions about things apparently outside of him. Sometimes I watch and wonder if they noticed anything while on the trail.  

One must look very closely for the now in order to see or notice it with the minds eye. We might say it takes a lot of practice to enter the now. 

Most of us live in some other time than now, believe we are in association with objects in the world; And have thoughts and opinions about them. 

I notice that there are no nuteral thoughts. They always appear to take one side or the other. Most people seem to be very enamored and confident in thier thoughts and enjoy verbalizing them. We find comfort, safety and familiarity in our mental positions. I once heard that we have 60,000 conscious thoughts each day. However they are the same 60,000 thoughts each day. 

A thought never leaves its source

It seems that we live in a bubble of only our own thoughts about things. These thoughts do not mean anything. Why? Because I have given everything I see, hear and think all the meaning it has for me. Our minds are filled only with our un-nuteral thoughts about things. They have nothing to do with reality. We are only a big bag of thoughts most often in association with the past or future and objects outside of us.

These thoughts are all the same- totally meaningless in the larger context. Where do they come from? They seem to arise from nowhere, just like the Big Bang boom. I hear and use the word “consciousness”, but what is it.

In sitting in meditation these thoughts just come out of nothing. Watch that nano-second before the thought, look there. 

This so called prized consciousness of the Eartling is insidious. A body appears to be born into a world, is given a name and starts collecting mental positions  or ” thought forms” as if constructing a entity from scratch.  Then once complete, reaching maturity, it then defends these positions. ” It” appears to only represent a tiny fragment of the whole.  

How might you define “whole mind”? Could, might it entail a mind which is totally abstract or free, with no mental constructs or positions to defend? This mind would be free to think abstractly and unlimited would it not. There is no good or bad, wright or wrong, pleasure or pain, just abstract mind.

If a stream babbles in the Forest does it make a sound? No just vibrations that must be picked up with a hearing component. If no mechanism is present – no sound. Some body must must be present to pick it up, then that body sends that signal to the brain; then does the brain label it a previously identified sound of a stream, or brook or river etc. it is re-cognized.

This free mind we spoke of; it would be like a child hearing it for the first time. It doesn’t tell it what it is, it ask it what it is. It has no re-cognition.

Jesus: Know you not Nicodemus, you must be born again.

Nicodemus: How can I crawl back into my Mothers womb?

Jesus: What is born of water is water, what is born of Spirit is Spirit.

What is born in flesh is brain, what is born in spirit is abstract Mind.

Free the Spirit/mind by letting go of mental positions and constructs. All of them. One illusion is all illusions. Total abstraction. By not defining anything it is free to be what it is. In Nirvana or Heaven there are no beliefs or mental constructs. Choice is conflict. In Nirvana there is nothing to decide between and no comparisons. All comparisons are laid down beside the truth.

Forget this world, everything you think you know and come with Holy empty arms into God.

The Stream

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It’s better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours, no one can take it from you, not by Angels nor by Demons, Heaven nor Hell. – Buddha  

Q: what in the hell does that mean?

A: This battle may be referred to as the battle of self concept verses Self. We have all built a concept of ourselves. it’s as if we were out in space and fabricated a self out of nothing and nothing can be made from nothing. its as if we designed a small holographic software package called “me” on our laptop and then plugged it into a world. This must be realized in order that the true Self may be known. This has been stated in many Spiritual text as parting the veil, Kundalini awakening, Crown Chokra opening, Enlightenment, Self – Realization and many more. These terms have been muddied over time and all but lost thier meaning. Truth remains as always changeless

Q: So how do we get back home?

 A: Good question. I laid on a beautiful Island the other day. I was in Oregon at a beautiful stream running through the coastal mountains. The water was whispering, the trees reflecting off the water, big deep pools among the soft Rapids. I noticed a little island in the stream. It was made of little smooth stones from the stream and the Sun was shining and heating them. I thought I’ll just lay on them and give myself a hot rock massage and talk with Jesus for a while. I proceeded to give a full dissertation on all of the reasons I was worthy and ready to come home. It’s ok here but I’m ready. I’ve been a good good boy, lately at least. just look at my score on the Video Game. Look at those points I racked up. Just beam me on up there and we can hang together, listen to some music, go swimming- I painted a wonderful picture. No response, but I could tell he was smiling. On I went about how I had done everything a Earthling could do here, just beam me on up. No response. Well at least talk to me, I said. Finally he spoke up barely able to hold back his laughter. He said, I can’t beam you up to a place you already are! I thought, Oh man not that again, I was really making progress, just keep that to yourself (just kidding). I asked, you mean I’m on the wrong road? It’s worse than that he replied, there are no roads. But as long as you think there are, turn around and go the other way. Oh, I’ve been going the wrong way, but this is a one way street, I said. He told me to go one block over and head the other way. There was some good news He informed me, one block over was a stream and all I had to do was put my raft in the water and float on back.    

Q: float on back huh? What about the Rapids on the river or the Snakes or Crocadiles? What will we eat or wear. Can I take my Cell Phone?

A: Well I’ve been eating the Crocks and the Snakes and this is a neked raft trip. Once you totally accept the idea of returning, all obstacles will be removed and your path will be made straight. Another thing is that the current always goes toward home on this River. I’ve seen many bodies struggling and paddling upstream against the current. They sure look worn out and tired. I just sat here under The Bodie tree for a minute, it’s time to go. Come on, the waters warm, it’s always Summertime here and everyone’s waiting for us. You can even fish on the way. Where the River meets the Ocean and the Ocean meets the sky, you will find me there.

I am not this or that but all of it!

  The Who-man Earthling Conscousness cannot tell truth from falsity, Heaven from Hell, pleasure from pain, advances from retreats- without aid. Why? Because he is locked in a circle of his own thoughts. Become the watcher of your thoughts, see the same ones come round and round. They whisper ” this is what you are”. What’s the solution? Exchange your thoughts or mind for another. If there is any regret or Psychological pain whatsoever, then we may say that a glitch in the software or too many fragmented unproductive files exist. What would occur if a re-boot, with a newer faster version of software were installed? Change your thoughts, change everything. One might even pop up in Thialand as a Goat Whisperer or Botanist or anything one might imagine. In this respect we are only our thoughts- sure. Everything finally is only your thought about it and you are the sum total of your thoughts.

     I hear arguments about the number of dimensions that exist. Look right at it, every human lives in his own dimension, his version of reality. He builds this place until maturity then spends the rest of the time defending his construct. Have you seen those little crabs that build their nest on the Ocean floor? Ok, let’s move on, I’m not attempting to berate you, I’m including myself. I’m just swimming alongside of you following the current making observations of the Psychedelic experience we both are having- fantastic is it not.

     More than that, a reconstruction or metamorphosis can occur in this lifetime- reincarnation- ha, we are constantly doing it, each moment. Within the limits of our need to always define ourselves we continually re- make ourselves as we remember ourselves- from our own Karma memory. I say you can change that at any time. Within your own mind exist everyone you have ever met, how can it not. We ARE everyone we have ever met. Wow- look right at it! In that respect we are the creator of our world- this world. This is why Theatre- stage play, acting is so wounderous. All the world is a stage you see and we must play a part.

      Who would you like to be? A sailer of the Seven Seas perhaps. A Homocide Detective, a Samaria Warrior maybe, a Movie Producer or Artist or Philosopher. It’s just a part. We say “Im not sure I can play that part”. How could this be, we wrote the play. We are the casting director and the Hero of our own dream. To be or not to be is not a choice- here we all are!

Understand that whatever part you play is not ultimately you. Well who the hell am I then? Say: I am before time was. How’s that feel?  See that all of the characters on the stage with you are the same-  before time was.  

     So how does this occur? All that exist is latent potential. What arises from that is manifest expression. Totally free and unlimited. Ideas such as good and bad, right and wrong, pleasure and pain are only that- judgements. If there is any evil it would have to be you. Why? Because there is Nothing “out there”. An Avatar are you. It is all you and you are all it! A thought never leaves it’s source. 

“We are One appearing as many”

“As Quantum Mechanics has shown us- not only can the observer not remain separate from the observed- they are One”

    Who therefore would be “The Holy Spirit” but you at the end of time. Then also you are the Jesus character. This is your play, your death of the ego and your/my resurrection- if we so chose for it to be.

Have you seen enough?

All the World returns to the Poetry it never left.     -Al

Art, Science, Mind, Poetry, Music- but I cannot grasp it, I cannot eat it. Oh yes my Love, for it is All what I do for a living, it is the very sustenance of life, it is the Bread of life. The Liver is a great occupation.


    You and I have fought many battles together. We have been the Victor and the Conquered, the Flag Bearer and the King. We have blown our Trumpets as We charged with no fear knowing we travel but in dreams. How real they seem to be. I invite you my Mighty Warrior to join me in our return from the Journey without distance to the place we never left. We have tasted the fruit of the Earth, now let us drink the Wine of the Spirit. We danced under the stars and laughed and twirled, let’s continue on now. They all are waiting to celebrate our victorious return from nowhere to Home. 

     There now is a fork in the road, a decision to be made. If we go straight as we did before, we will come here again. No, we must go left or right. One can go away from home but surely he will not reach it. Have you seen enough?

I hear your voice on the wind

And I hear you call out my name

“Listen, my child,” you say to me

“I am the voice of your history

Be not afraid, come follow me

Answer my call, and I’ll set you free”

I am the voice in the wind and the pouring rain

I am the voice of your hunger and pain

I am the voice that always is calling you

I am the voice, I will remain

I am the voice in the fields when the summer’s gone

The dance of the leaves when the autumn winds blow

Ne’er do I sleep thoughout all the cold winter long

I am the force that in springtime will grow

I am the voice of the past that will always be

Filled with my sorrow and blood in my fields

I am the voice of the future, bring me your peace

Bring me your peace, and my wounds, they will heal

I am the voice in the wind and the pouring rain

I am the voice of your hunger and pain

I am the voice that always is calling you

I am the voice

I am the voice of the past that will always be

I am the voice of your hunger and pain

I am the voice of the future

I am the voice, I am the voice

I am the voice, I am the voice

– Celtic Woman

I Am calling you out of the world. It is death by astonishment.


You can only see your-SelffleS


The blind man with his cane, the homeless man digging through a dumpster, alcoholics sleeping in the ditch, the elderly and feeble, the abandoned, the prisoner incarcerated for a crime he did not commit, a child born into disease, the lover who has been cheated on, patients in mental institutions, the ones caring for these individuals. Here in the world the eternal come to die, the everything to be nothing, the all encompassing to be locked in a cell. Can the limitless be limited? 

 Stay with me here, this is not a depressing tale of sorrow, we have enough of                           that here, just a little contrast, then we will flip the switch.

Forgiveness and Love fall like raindrops from Heaven on a dry and dusty world                                 where thirsty and starving creatures come to die.”

The Play has been good
The Play has been good

6 Listen-perhaps you catch a hint of an ancient state not quite forgotten; dim, perhaps, and yet not altogether unfamiliar, like a song whose name is long forgotten; and the circumstances in which you heard completely unremembered. Not the whole song has stayed with you, but just a little wisp of melody, attached not to a person or a place or anything particular. But you remember, from just this little part, how lovely was the song, how wonderful the setting where you heard it, and how you loved those who were there and listened with you.

7 The notes are nothing. Yet you have kept them with you, not for themselves, but as a soft reminder of what would make you weep if you remembered how dear it was to you. You could remember, yet you are afraid, believing you would lose the world you learned since then. And yet you know that nothing in the world you learned is half so dear as this. Listen, and see if you remember an ancient song you knew so long ago and held more dear than any melody you taught yourself to cherish since.

8 Beyond the body, beyond the sun and stars, past everything you see and yet somehow familiar, is an arc of golden light that stretches as you look into a great and shining circle. And all the circle fills with light before your eyes. The edges of the circle disappear, and what is in it is no longer contained at all. The light expands and covers everything, extending to infinity forever shining and with no break or limit anywhere. Within it everything is joined in perfect continuity. Nor is it possible to imagine that anything could be outside, for there is nowhere that this light is not.   -ACIM


     These are two pictures, two different worlds and both are in your mind for you can only see yourself. If your thoughts are with the first you will see a hateful fearful world. If your thoughts are in line with the second you will see a great and shining circle where all the world is fresh and new, a new Heaven and a new Earth. It is a choice, your choice. We have all built our own concept of what the world represents. Now we spend our time defending that position. Wars are fought and illusionary battles are won and seemingly lost. You cannot lose but you will not recognize this until you try and lose. To be or not to be. 

You and I have fought many battles together . We have been the Victor and the Conquered, the Flag Bearer, and the King. We blew our Trumpets as we charged with no fear into battle. We travel but in dreams my Love. How real they seem to be. I invite you home my courageous Brother. There is a fork in the road now, we have been here before. There is only one road leading home and going in the opposite direction will not lead there. Here a decision must be made. If we go straight, the way we went before, we will be here again.Butch

     The question is simple, have you seen enough. I Am the Christian, the Hindu, the Muslim and the Jew. The Beggar, The giver, the imprisoned and the Free. Which parts have you played? I am a builder and an interpreter now. I have built a ladder which we can climb out of the Double Helix. Are you coming?

Nothing I see means anything

 This is Big Al Will- I Am broadcasting in High Definition on the Spirit Broadcast Network which is everywhere you want to be. 

May the Love, Light and Wisdom of the Divine shine forth Now!

In the declaration of; teach on the basis of what you want to learn because what you teach is teaching you- here we go.

There is a proven method of contacting the one true Power Source of all there is, ever was and ever will be. May you find it Now!

A Course in Miracles

In the first lesson of this particular Spiritual Text (can be found in many) it says:

Nothing I see means anything.The reason this is so is that I see nothing, and nothing has no meaning. It is necessary that I recognize this, that I may learn to see. What I think I see now is taking the place of vision. I must let it go by realizing it has no meaning, so that vision may take its place.

   To the initiated this may or may not make any sense whatsoever. Why? Who in thier right mind would believe that what they have taught themselves through thier entire life is meaningless. I say we are not “in” our right mind. This is the point of the lesson. 

Q: what does it mean?

A: From one approach it means that the things we see have no meaning in and of themselves. We must give them meaning and I have given everything I see all the meaning it has for me (second lesson). It’s important to understand this.

Q:why is that important?

A: in order to change our minds about what we see, to see it with the Quantum field we must come to this simple realization.

Q: Why would I want to do that?

A: At some point we all come to the conclusion or ask the question; is this all there is. Or we wonder ” is there more”. What happened to my childhood Joy. In the building of our own Universes, we had a bad teacher “ourselves”. But there exist within our own minds a solution, a better teacher who knows what will make us happy. 

Q:Who is it that’s in there?

A:  nothing that can be said can describe her. There’s a reason for this. Anything that can be described the mind will formulate a picture of and start ascribing attributes to ” it”. I like to think of “it” as me at the end of time or the Quantum Field of Universal intelligence. 

Q: Where is “it”?

A: That would be an attribute. Not within the space/ time continuum as we perceive it. And in contrast to that statement “everywhere” , everything is connected and at the same time ultimately illusory. In this dimension connected and within the Oneness of Ultimate Reality non- existent. 

Q: How do I contact it?

A: Very good question. There is a light in you the world cannot perceive, call it Buddha Nature, Spirit, Spark of Divinity, true Self, Atman within, endless names have been given and will continue to be applied. 

Q: Why so many names?

A: Because we are discussing the traits of the one true reality that has been recognized by all civilizations from the beginning of Man. Totally and utterly beautiful beyond definition, the source of all of mans true happiness.

Q: Does this have anything to do with the planets and stuff?

A: Once you have stood outside of the Cosmos and and are shown the transientness of it all, certianly one may see that his life here is the same. But you are before time was, so the planets nor anything in space/time can effect you.

Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without.              Buddha

You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger. The man being whipped is the man doing the whipping.           – unknown

The in examined life is not worth living.    —-Socrates

All else can wait; finding out why you exist cannot.          – Vedanta

Do you want to know the ending, find the beginning for there lies the end.    – Jesus


Q: why did you just throw a lot of quotes at me?

A:  To make you think.

Q: Am I not always thinking?

A: Think about what you are thinking about and remember when you are in the past or future your mind is blank.

Q: huh

A: the most one can say about the past is that it is gone, the future but imagined. Most of the time you think about the past and future, your mind is blank. Eternity is a moment in time that last forever. Sequencing time is the currency of the ego. By doing so one misses now and covers it over.

There are Universal laws in existence that cannot be seen but exist. One may align himself and experience the joy that he came here to receive. Once the question is asked, ” why am I here, what is the meaning in this”, he begins his journey to ultimate freedom. These universal laws become clear in his mind and he need only bend himself to them. Rigid are the laws but flexible is he. Non attachment to any outcome he sways with the tips of the flame of the fire, he becomes the dancer and finally the dance. The dance is always right here, right now. One cannot dance before or later. Life ” is” always the essence of the dance and never the form. It cannot be found in another time and space if not now. One cannot run toward it hoping to find it in the future. Joy exist within the laws of the essence of now. Within the fire dancers heart as he performs and together with the entertained creates this joy of life. As the performer gives himself and the court feels that energy, combined with thier own- this is the essence of the dance of life.

   As long as one is locked into his own surface life circumstances and identifies with them, life is covered over with a veil of thought form. Complete each task as the dance and dancer with no attachment to outcome. One is not the means to the end or causation. The message and the messenger are one. 

 Our opinion about anything is wrong by default. Why? Because we have no nuteral thought. There is no right or wrong only our opinion about it and that is always false. There are three-Hundred and sixty degree marks on a Compass and infinitely more ticks between those. The only thing that appears to exist are different approaches to a subject. Just different ways of looking at thought form. Things are only thoughts projected out. An opinion about a thought form is what subjective reality is. It really is a thought about a thought. We project thoughts outside of us then we defend ourselves against them. It’s comical. We defend ourselves against our own thoughts and who are we defending but a mind made self. So nothing is defending itself against nothing. Once more, everything we see with the body’s eyes is completely nuteral, it just is. The thing we see,  we must give or assign meaning to. Even our own bodies are completely nuteral. Without stress or abuse by us. They merely follow directions. Tell the body to walk down this road or that one and it obeys. We tell it as we grow up things such as ” this is what Hot feels like”, if you feel this let me know. It merely sends us signals we have taught it. It’s only out thought about the body that gives it meaning for us. Thing like ” I hate you body” are decided by us. And who are “we” but a self construction. We damn sure are not the body, so who are we, consciousness. No – pure being, consciousness arises after being, perception with the body’s senses are not needed in total Oneness or Nirvana. So we are a self constructed self (nothing) having an non nuteral opinion about a nuteral thing. See.

Q: So what if any is the solution? 

A: Enlightenment is the end of suffering.               -Buddha

Q: what does that mean?

A: Freedom is the freedom of concepts or thoughts about anything. Things just are, they don’t need our opinion to be what they are. In fact, if we withdraw our opinion about them they will tell us what they are. As well if you stop telling yourself what you are or withdraw the need to define yourself you will come to know what you are, which is no “thing”. I like this, don’t like that, all personal preferences, I’m not good at that, I can do this. Stop it! Don’t build a mental construct about yourself for that equates to suffering.

Q: What happens after that?

A: When we stop trying to define and categorize everything we will find Peace. What springs from Peace is joy and Love goes hand in hand as a companion with these. 

Also we must all come to see that by categorizing our brothers we are really saying we are not worthy. Looking at a brother and deciding he is deficit is just the same as looking at our thoughts and saying not good enough. 

In summary: 

Never defend yourself

Be Love Now

Just Who in the Hell do you think you are?

Who are You?
Who are You?

Q: Alex what is the meaning of life?

A: The Ultimate meaning is to know yourself. The Greeks had a saying “Sarte Nueron” which meant just that.

Q: How do I come to know myself?

A: One simply must ask. Seek and he shall find, knock and the door shall be opened. Find a spiritual text you like and inquire.

Q: Are there other ways?

A: Yes as Ramana Maharshi and Nasargadatta put it, just sit quietly and hone in on “I”. What am I? Am I this body, am I these thoughts, am I the sum of my memories and experiences here on this planet. Ask what was my face before I was born.

Q: What will I discover?

A: I have discovered that before this life, I am. Before this world, I am. Before the Universe, I am. I am: not this body, these thoughts, feelings, or anything one can name or imagine.

Q: What will happen next?

A: I have discovered freedom of the false mind made self. Freedom of attachment to thought. Thoughts are like big hooks, if they get a bite they will drag you out to see. Watch them pass by like clouds. Look here goes one now. I am in the world but I do not let it tell me my identity.

Q: Who does the world try to tell you you are?

A: Well who do you think YOU are?

Q: Well my name is Fred and I’m male , my parents live in Katmandoo and they raised me. I am married and am a brick mason….

A: Well the world has taught you poorly. I applaud your hard work and marriage, these can be great gifts. What I am saying is before, behind and underneath all these things you are pure being, perfect and unchangeable. Get in touch with that. As you do these other earthly things, let that pure being lead the way. Hold the Torch of your pure being out in front at all times as you run the tracks of life- just like the Olympic Torch Bearer. See what happens then.

Q:What will happen?

A: This is not a Science, it is an art.  Attack your mind as an Alchemist and boil all thoughts that do not serve away. Life will become a great joy, all fear will fade. What is life with fear but fearful. One cannot see two worlds at the same time. He sees a hateful vengeful world or a perfect Garden of Eden to play out this temporary and transient short life that is only one page in a Great series of Novels.


Q: Is that my purpose?

A: Yes your purpose is to be happy. Once held, it is realized that nothing can take it from you. Love has no opposite, if your not feeling it then fear is blocking your awareness of love, peace and joy. If you have fear then you are identifying with an imaginative phantom, fearful thoughts have made their home in you. Eviction is in order. This is accomplished by watching your thoughts. Find all of the ones that do not make you happy, trace them back to thier source and pull them up like a weed and cast them into the fire.


Q: How is this done?

A: What are your fearful of?

Q: I am fearful of not having a good life.

A: This I find common and at one time I had this similar fear. So let’s look at how a “good life” could be defined. I know a woman in prison right now who text me every day about the joy she has found through here introspection due to her time incarcerated. I know another woman who has beauty and lives freely in the work but is always miserable. What is the difference? Happiness is not circumstance dependent. There will always be storms on the surface of life. They do not define you. You are changeless, unchangable. Your happiness will never be found in the world, it must come from within. The kingdom of Heaven is within- Jesus said.

Q: How do I find it within?

A: Most fear comes from the underlying belief in death or time. Time = death. No matter what you do here you will apparently get old, get sick and get die. No, no, no, your are before this world, you cannot die therefore time is a man made illusion.

Q: This body will die

A: Yes this body will die but it is not you. The only possible way to live is Now. You can’t live yesterday nor tomorrow, you must undergo your awakening into eternity NOW. It’s the only time you can do it. This involves a changing of your thought system. The software has a few Trojan Horses that are wreaking havoc. Let’s shut down the Hard Drive and load a new faster updated version of Creative Mind. The old fearful software is slow and outdated and does not serve. Change your thoughts, change your now life.

Q: But I am not a computer

A: You are more like a computer than you imagine while you identify with the body and brain. Every decision you will ever make will stem from what you think you are! Believe that you are a body laid upon a dying world and sorrow will befall you, if not now eventually. Know that you are all power of the Universe and nothing can block your way to Happiness. You are the dreamer of this dream. Sit and focus on the “Who am I”. Am I this fearful thought, this body, these emotions, these memories, these life situations that come and go. What are you?

Q: Thanks Big Al

Let’s  all go to the movies

     Picture This

     There is Movie Theatre in your mind. It’s called “The Grand Illusion”. It’s a beautiful Theatre, recliners for chairs, super- kickass sound system. The screen is monstrous and made from glass- crystal clear. No one else has come to watch, it’s just you. As you sit and wait suddenly you notice a figure next to you. “Can I get some of that popcorn” he asked. Slowly in shock you hand it over. I Love Popcorn he states. As you evaluate this figure he looks somehow familiar. What’s with the white Robe dude” you ask. Well it’s comfortable and easy to go to the bathroom in, plus I have appearances to keep up, he informs you. He tells you that today the movie is a biography of your life. He says your life is already over and now we merely look back on it in dreams. Oh here’s the curtain call- let’s watch. Right at the beginning he starts laughing, he laughs practically all the way through pointing at the screen. You were so disappointed when your bike got stolen, oh, here is where you lost your cell phone, you got fired from that shitty job, what a relief. Oh, here comes the good part when you finally realized this was only a dream and woke up, those where the best happy years. Oh, you haven’t seen this part yet. You ask, ok, what do I do when this happens? He says you turn to me and ask- that’s what.

      And so it is. There is a guide within your dream construct waiting patiently to help you. He never demands and never commands. Just bring me the darkness and we will shine a light on it and see if it remains is his advice. Bring Him some Popcorn as a gift. He’s an avid movie watcher.

Time- what in the Hell is it good for

     I am here and you are there but we are not separate. All minds are joined.

Right now, Milky Way Galaxy, this Solar system, planet Earth, there are Tribes of people existing that have never seen a white man. They still use bows and arrows, still worship unknown gods. We know very little about them. 

     Can you see how in this representation how all time is going on all the time. This is not accurate but nothing here is. This world is the reverse of truth in every way. I merely point. 

     Another pointer. This Universe is nothing more than an idea. Made of mental constructs so over learned we have forgotten the making.  I’ve spoken with the master originating Creator about this. I stepped out of time for a moment. My question was , what alternative do I have? Where else is there to play?  As with many things  seemingly including this world, I get bored. I feel like I was nudged back toward this world. Not this time, finish what you started. God is standing there and motions His head over his shoulders as he says- right back there in that room there’s a group that meets for lunch- ” Savours of the world anonymous ” . They play cards, tell stories, smoke Cigars. You need to make that group. 

      Now I’m not saying I am responsible for saving your world- just mine. Time- what the Hell is it good for? Only to escape from it. 

     The two children battle with thier wooden swords and shields. Take that, oooow I got you good. By the way what are we fighting for? Oh it doesn’t matter let’s just learn to love the battle. Older now and in the Army he battles still unknowing the reason. 

     If the Universe loves the one he battles and seeks to kill, has he not now separated himself from the will of the Universe. Who has he become? Who does he battle but a piece of himself, his own brother. The Civil War rages on with brothers from the same family on different sides. Who’s freedom does he fight for?

 Everyone is free Now. The love of battle that he learned as a child is only a learned game that he learned to love. He has only learned to defend his love of battle.

     What is the alternative. If one wants peace he will find it. He stands above the battleground now and sees he but battles himself.  The sheid and sword are thrown in the fireplace never to be picked up again. Oh sure he may out of habit reach for them at some point only to chuckle at the thought. For if the Universe of Love is what he is, then why make another separate one that opposes this. 

     One finds himself on the road to peace now. The perceptual human mind might still find sin attractive. This attraction is liken to a 20 foot thick and 40 fort tall block wall. A secret magic phrase must be proclaimed in order for the unseen doorway to materialize. That phrase is ” I need help, I am willing to receive it now” best declared on one knee with head bowed. Now we enter the realm of power in belief. This world is seen by very few and it is powerful indeed, all power eminates from here. Sit here quietly on the bench in this Garden until you know every fruit growing here. Eat of this fruit until you are what you eat. This is the Garden of your birth and the end as well. Remember the music you danced to here and the companions who sang with you, they are waiting for your return. Sit with the music and find this place in your mind. This acidic exquisite Love for all things was placed there by your Father so you would never lose it. You did find it and now we only watch the movie of your finding as we celebrate once more your homecoming. 

      I Love YOU so much more than what you call life. YOU are Loved and YOU can Love. For giving is proof of having. Prove it Now.